She is afraid of how she'll present in a crowd and to anyone - will she falter, will she seem stupid, will she know the best way to be. And she is fearful of what will happen as her mind tells her stories of worst outcomes of any situation. What if she can't cope? What… Continue reading Stories told
Advancing, retreating... ebb and flow. Filling, emptying... replenishing and relinquishing. Deconstructing and reconstructing. This is how life is. Sometimes we are aware of this dynamic process, but often we are just living our daily lives, filled with busy events and tasks. Particularly during this pandemic, things seem a little repetitive and predictable. Sometimes we pay… Continue reading We are arriving
I am neglecting her. And with this, attendant guilt. Not all the time, just enough to elevate the stress level. I do not believe that I must attend to her all the time, consistently and regularly. But I’d started out with this intention. And the habit had been long ingrained until recently. A new interest… Continue reading Which to honor?
Is what we do meaningful? Do we do things because we believe them to be meaningful, or do we find meaning after we have done them? During my teenage years, I was entranced with Hong Kong entertainer, Leslie Cheung - award-wining singer and actor, songwriter and music producer. One of his films, Farewell, My Concubine… Continue reading Meaning in hindsight?
Simple. Always write simply. And not a rule I have followed lately, on this blog. Write to be understood. Perhaps this has not been the purpose. I write for many reasons; sorting out my thoughts is one of them. Reader understanding becomes secondary. I am not saying this is the attitude to adopt when writing… Continue reading A thought, a commitment
Sensuousness… what’s your take on it? A rainy day in the mountains, in (what feels like) the depth of winter. As I finish the weekly errands, I long for a warm room, a seat by the window looking out into the grey sky and shadows of the nature around , a steaming cup of coffee… Continue reading Sensuousness…daily.
Letting go of the need for attention, appreciation and approval. Freedom. The key word is “need”. Everyone enjoys attention, appreciation and approval. I know I do. But it is not for them that I do what I do. I hope it is not because of them that I am who I am. Within me is… Continue reading Let go…?
Someone asked what kept me going. And it took a while to explain the process to myself and to put labels to the actions and emotions which accompanied me. I used to have goals, clear and bold hovering ahead of me. Goals I was determined to attain. These goals loomed large, reminding me of their… Continue reading Is this right for now?
I do not watch horror movies; I shield my eyes in critical moments in a suspense thriller. (No, I'm not missing the “excitement” at all!) Where possible, I choose not to engage in conflict. I have created a peaceful space in my home and in my life in general. I live a relatively simple life.… Continue reading Can we bear it?
Is it hesitation or is it careful consideration? Is it “being nice” or is it “being fearful”? Is it doubt or merely kindness? Is it being in my power or is it being mean? There was a myriad of emotions which presented these last few weeks from these questions. And when the resolution arrived, it… Continue reading Pragmatic hope
This autumn - why am I growing old? bird disappearing among clouds. ~ Basho Matsuo An apt poem to begin this post - a reflection of sorts on 50 years of life. But how to measure this time past? An impossibility - so many perspectives, paradigms. Where would I begin? So perhaps lessons I have… Continue reading Lessons by 50
The threat of COVID-19 and the recent fires and floods have reinforced upon me that life is simple, or it ought to be. Our daily fears of losing material things, reputation, status, and popularity pale into insignificance, compared to these life threatening events. As news of the impact of the virus continues to headline the… Continue reading Simply let go
KPop sensation BTS released their album "Map of the Soul: 7" recently to international acclaim; the theme of this album addresses light and shadow of our existence. And listening to the songs I re-acquaint myself with the Jungian concepts of "light and shadow". It has been a while since I studied them. It has been… Continue reading Shadow, and will you be happy?
A late-night conversation brought this song to mind… No matter our biological age, we anticipate the future. Will it be good, will it be enough, will it fulfill or disappoint…? When I am older, I will… And depending on our mindset, we will either see “certainties” or unknowns. And we can become fearful either way.… Continue reading What is your adventure?
The lunar new year has dawned…and the traditional celebration goes for 15 days. I anticipate another family gathering this week to mark the end of this festive period. Celebratory it may be, I do not mark time with festive seasons, whether they be Christmases or new years or lunar new years. Oddly, not birthdays either.… Continue reading When did you…?
The books on my shelf tell a story. They tell a story of me. I believe we are drawn to certain books for a reason. And the preference changes over time. Our collection of books tell of who we were, who we are and perhaps who we would like to be. They indicate our desires… Continue reading Book journey
I recall reading somewhere (though I do not remember where otherwise I would have quoted it here) that our children are here to teach us something about life. Wise words, indeed 😉 ? I am often reminded of this when parenting challenges arise, such as when I ran out of solutions or strategies to deal… Continue reading Are you noticing?
Days are flying by so it seems, and today I noticed my last post was 11 days ago. That's a long time between posts. I have been writing though, just not blogging. Sometimes the writing bug is satisfied elsewhere. And the privilege of choice did not escape my attention. Here, surrounded by books, writing tools… Continue reading Waking with gratitude
I have been listening to music and watching a lot of music videos lately, more so than usual. The wonder(?) of AI on social media platform meant I was recommended more music of the genres that I liked. And as I kept following those recommendations, more of the same would arrive. I “discovered” artists I… Continue reading Music Taste
Do you fight fire with fire? Douse it with water? Let it burn? This past week has been one such challenge. Arriving in an alien city armed with a less-than-proficient skill for the local language, I found my every attempt to communicate and get things done thwarted by unhelpful and rude attitude. The city was… Continue reading Fire with fire