Time flew, and I am aware of a habit of mine – that I don’t do things by half.
Either I’m in or I’m out. When the choice is made and I’m in, I give it my best. This is a “work ethic” which I have operated on these decades of my life. To compound the sense of purpose and urgency, I am also accustomed to making decisions as fast as possible, striking while the iron is hot, as the saying goes. Anything less than dealing with it now is procrastination or worse, laziness. Addressing something in days of old means an immediate intellectual evaluation to arrive at a solution or outcome followed by an active action. To be doing something in answer is all important.
BUT… (there is always a ‘but’ 🙂 )
A ego-driven and ego-led response is highly effective and useful, yet incomplete. For an optimal whole response, this must also be in play (perhaps leading the charge?).
Giving time to let matters sink into my sub-conscious, to listen to my body’s reaction, to observe signs, to be aware of my emotional response, to trust in a process of unfolding beyond my reason and control, to be alert and still are equally important. These are states of being learnt over recent years.
I cannot ignore the fullness of the human experience and the true power that lies within, even if I do forget sometimes. I invariably return.
So yes, time flew in the past few weeks as I picked up the mantle of a few things.
My re-awakening – knowing I don’t have to pick up everything even as I am choosing to re-engage with the doing part of me. I have choice and it is liberating.
So back to priorities, and being balanced.
~ FlorenceT
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