I am pretty lucky.
I live close to modern amenities but not close enough to encounter sensory overload. I have flexible work hours. I have the privilege of choosing where I work so long as I get the work done, and how I work so long the work is of sound quality.
With relative freedom to organize my time, I have the privilege of not feeling stressed through having to meet competing personal and professional commitments at any one time.
I also have the privilege of choice – to maintain silence, to engage with reflection, to withdraw from unwanted scrutiny, or to participate in events as I desire.
I have the opportunity to say ‘no’ so I can live the life I want.
Of course to make these choices, I did have to search within me for what it was that I needed and wanted, to identify the path I would take. I had to learn to let go of what no longer served me, and step off a path or step across to another path, and to take time to make those decisions. I had to learn to not fear the unfamiliarity and discomfort of strange lands.
But all these would not have been possible if I hadn’t been raised in a middle-income family, been inspired to greater things, to obtain an education and parental guidance on how to live life. None of these were perfect, but perfect enough to help me lead a functional life – to have courage to stand up for myself, to have knowledge to make decisions for myself, to be skilled in what I choose to do, and ultimately to veer and change the direction of my life. It seems I have done this for some time – navigating the roles I adopt, the jobs I have, the relationships I build and forgo – without realising it.
Most importantly, and what I value most amongst these many luxuries and opportunities, is this: I have the luxury of quiet, to have my own sanctuary. This quiet is a precondition to my ability to make right decisions and take appropriate actions. It is also a condition to my decision and action.
I ask myself –
Is there quiet here? Is there peace here?
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