I stopped looking for happiness. Not because I don’t want to be happy, or that I don’t believe in its existence.
I stopped looking for happiness because it does not serve me, this constant evaluation of my state of happiness and this relentless searching and eventual disappointment.
There is no ‘right-er’ state for me than now. The state I am in is it, now.
True happiness is… to enjoy the present, without anxious dependence upon the future. Seneca
What I have chosen instead is a deliberate act of pursuing my passion, what challenges me intellectually, what fulfils me spiritually, what gives me a sense of accomplishment, what takes me into the zone of ‘losing myself’ in a space of creativity, beauty…love. Many have questioned my sanity… how could hours of research, reading, writing be all that? How could time spent alone be enough? My answer, because it is, for me.
Each of us need to find, to identify what it is that calls to us. And when you find it, hold it close to your heart. Don’t be dissuaded by the logical and sensible ‘advice’ that will come your way about it. Stay grounded in your conviction of its rightness. Revel in the delight of this adventure…
Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony. Mahatma Gandhi
I am not certain I am in the harmony that Gandhi spoke of. It does not matter. I don’t chase it. What is, is. Trust in the intention of the present moment. It is enough I have a private smile of satisfaction more often than not. It is enough my lows and disappointments are few. It is enough I no longer compare my present with a future I believe I could have. It is enough there is no compulsion to chase the happiness defined by others existing always in the future.
Happiness—A butterfly, which when pursued seems always just beyond your grasp; but if you sit down quietly, may light upon you. Nathaniel Hawthorne
Life is not perfect, this has never been my intention.
I choose for this life to be fully lived, by me; for each moment to be moment of love, grace or gratitude.
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