Well I have been a little, and though my intellect, my mind tells me to chill, sometimes the emotions and the body react. I hope I am not alone when I say it is so easy, rather unthinkingly to take the stressed out emotions out on someone else.
That can happen, don’t flay yourself over it. I now watch this with a certain curiosity of ‘why’ and ‘how’. The intention is to pay attention to the triggers, to catch them before the emotions erupt, before relationships become strained, friendships threatened. And sometimes it may be simpler to identify our body’s reaction before recognizing our emotions, like the tense shoulders, the trembling heart, the shaking hands, the jiggling feet… so many of our emotions manifesting in our body if only we would ‘listen’. What does your body do when there is sadness, anger, fear… Perhaps the next time you feel compelled to lash out, when you know in your mind you are angry, to watch how your body holds that emotion… Who knows, but you may find that the ‘angry’ your mind suggests may not be ‘anger’ at all.
I am not sure how I got to this, except wanting to share this song by Twenty One Pilots. The premise of the song is about being stressed out, emanating from a sense of ‘not good enough’, or ‘not enough’. One of the most common reaction we have to a sense of inadequacy is to externalise this feeling – to blame your lack of success on someone, to attempt to claw at power, control, being the centre of attention – all to make us seem ‘good enough’, at best they bring satisfaction and comfort temporarily. The thing is, we have to believe it of ourselves, that we are enough, that within us lies the knowledge of lifetimes, the wisdom of generations.
The song also makes reference to being back in the comfort and safety of childhood, as an antidote to self-doubts and being stressed out. While this may not be true for everyone, many of us would see our childhood to be a time filled with possibilities, when life was simple and we were supported, encouraged, comforted, held, nourished. Where did that go? When did we begin to believe that we have to own more, to experience ‘great’ adventures, to meet societal standards of education, wealth, style of life, looks, … in order to be good enough?
When did we forget our beautiful and effervescent selves?
Don’t you wonder?
I am enjoying this somewhat quirky song and hope you like it too!
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