Living life, The Self

Begin it now

Whatever you do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius and power and magic in it. Begin it now.     Goethe

Have you ever wanted something so much that you are too scared to begin, just in case it proved to be a disaster? Just in case you find out you are actually not so good at it, just in case ‘it’ turns out to be a dud, just in case …

Or have you, despite knowing you can, not begin because it would require change in your life, which is in itself, let’s be honest, a scary thing.

The irony is, our lives are changing anyway – as I write this and as you read this – perhaps not in the momentous occasion we usually envisage change to be, with a capital ‘C’ and drums heralding its arrival; but more likely in miniscule steadfast steps.

A few years ago when reflecting on my life, I saw the changes in my life that had crept up when I was not paying attention.  Some welcomed, some less so.  Some got me angry – at all the ‘I wish’ that I had not begun. I wondered then whether I would be willing to be in the same place in another few years, feeling the same anger and still saying “I wish”. Not really…

In a moment of clarity, I decided I would pay attention to the years coming. I chose to begin something of my heart’s desire instead of just imagining it. I am not naïve, I knew the price I had to pay – change in how I live each day and also change for my family. I did not know if it would be a ‘good’ or ‘bad’ change. I was not seeking to judge and perhaps pre-empt, only to let it unfold. I was beginning as boldly as I could, and excited to see where it would lead.

Years down the track, I hope to remark with a little surprise at how my life has indeed changed and to reflect on the paths I have consciously chosen when upon the forks on my road.

And so I have begun. I am still not wholly certain if I can, nevertheless I choose to be bold and begin. Perhaps along this journey, I will discover the genius and power and magic in it (or its fallacy, yikes!). Though the very act of beginning already feels empowering and a little magical!

So, what will you begin now?



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